DEAREST. I rise to smoke at the midnight watch
               and sleep in ceaseless oil. The Courser’s
try-pots pitch in the smog, blubber left to boil
                their stomachs. Night is sour
and slick on the fingers, sweet like fevered soot.
               Boys lift their gaffs 
when the mate calls for whale. Lance pieces 
               by their spines. Fish becomes fat 
becomes verdant oil, hands darkened 
               by furnace glow. In twelve months 
we scrub our faces and return—to you—
               as winter: pressed pure, bleached,
						undone—
*
DEAREST. When you wrote Depend upon my return
               I am certain you did not mean
like this, headed MEMORANDA., or DIED., rather than
               ARRIVALS IN 1859. Joining you were
Isaac Glidden, Seaman, of Holderness, and Wm. Briggs,
               1st Officer, of Charlestown. LOST AT SEA.
was Charles Durfey, son of Charles and Eliza M. Durfey.
               Mary brought me
the Shipping List this morning—my love—but word
               came from the wharves early Friday last.
The paper tells the numbers: 18 vessels of all classes lost
               viz.—4 ships, 3 barks, 11 schooners
their total value being about $—		not including
               their cargoes. 600 bbls. sp. from your ship
were taken on by the Josephine, and her owners
               will claim their amount against the
PERILS OF THE SEA. But I depended
               on your return—and so—Dearest—
your promises are no good for me.
            Shou Jie Eng is an architectural designer and writer. Originally from Singapore, he runs Left Field Projects, a studio practice located in Hartford, Connecticut. He was a finalist for the inaugural Kenyon Review Poetry Contest in 2024, and teaches courses in drawing at the Rhode Island School of Design.